New York Philharmonic

Guys! I can't believe it.
I was so confused whether to get the New York Philharmonic ticket since it is so expensive.
at times i told myself, wanna listen to new york phil?? go listen on CD and youtube.
and at times, How can you miss new york phil???? one concert will bring you more joy than 10 of SSO's.
lol.
and so I've got myself a ticket for tonight's concert featuring Frank Peter Zimmermann on Brahms' Concerto.
Mahler's First is in the programme too ^^ even though it is not my favourite Mahler. I like Mahler 3rd and 6th most ^^
Talking about Frank Peter Zimmermann, I'VE MISSED HIM ONCE!!!!!
few years back when London Symphony toured KL, I bought the ticket like super early,
ending up not being able to travel to KL for the performance for a reason I can't remember.
the ticket was courier mailed to Bryan then.
Now thinking back.... How can i miss LSO???? and Frank Peter Zimmermann!!!!
yea. tonite i'm gonna see you anyway ^^ but for LSO.... i really regret not turning up for the concert.
so tonight is NYPO!!!! yeah~~~~ I still remember the good sound London Phil and Los Angeles Phil had last october in esplanade hall.
hope this year will be better. it is NYPO. like top top top top top orchestra lah. certainly will be much more impressive~~~
^^
off to practise.

大姐大的祝福

早上醒来，电邮箱里有着这么一封信息。
大姐大我爱你 ^^

朋友們，這是我第二次沒有在馬來西亞慶祝中秋節了。
今天突然很感傷。
本來想說要send一張自己做的卡片給大家。
可是我明天就去迎新宿營，這幾天都忙的要死。
不過還是時時刻刻想起大家。
想起大家對我的諒解，一直那么了解我，一直聽我訴苦，一直讓我開心……
好像來到臺灣很少看到這樣的朋友。
不知道大家是不是有回去慶祝中秋節。
不知道馬來西亞的月亮會不會一樣很圓。
不知道大家是不是吃得到馬來西亞的月餅……我真的吃不到>.<
不知道大家還有沒有玩燈籠。
最近的我，算很忙，一堆事情要忙。
之后等我有空了我再找你們聊天。
真的很愛你們～～～～～～～
中秋節快樂！！！！
幸福快樂哦～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

馨盈.

由衷的感激

我生病了...我生病了！
我生病了！！！
周围的一切压迫、四方的压力，
造就了这一切。

我恨学校里的政治；
我恨大人们过度的反应；
我恨被迫书写掩盖事实的道歉信；
生命，顿时好黑暗；一切，好假。
被逼违背心意，却不能出声；好痛。

话说回来，我病了...
我病了！！！
以前生病了都好孤独。
这次，好不一样；
木河，也病了。

一封简讯，
“我妈叫你带多几件衣服和牙刷来我家住，她照顾你。
来之前记得看医生。”

在这里...
张妈妈和张爸爸，
每隔几下子就来摸摸我额头颈项，
然后催促我喝水、菊花茶、姜汤...
一切都考虑得很周到;
寒衣挂在离我最近的沙发上，垃圾桶就在我旁边以备我呕吐...
晚上，当我双手发抖，胃口缺乏的时候，
木河的妈妈喂着我吃面线，喝面线汤，
看着我吃药。

半夜，木河的爸妈几乎都没睡觉，
不时起身来检查我和木河的状况，
让我觉得好感动，又好内疚，觉得欠他们太多人情了。

人生的道路上，
能遇到的贵人有几个？
我衷心的感谢张爸爸和张妈妈，
若我自己一个人在家养病，
不可能这么快好起来的。

爱大家。
承宣

A Whole New World

so now's time for a new life.
what a turning point for me.
it's time to grow up, to be independent;
it's time to face the real and to stay strong.

yeah you can cope with it.
because you are who you are.
you have survived throughout the years.

let's see...
those days when you get yourself caned by your daddy n mummy...
when you were so worried because of a textbook you not bring or homework you not done...
when you think you wouldn't survive the exams...
when you decided that you can't work with a teacher that will be teaching you for the whole school year...
when you were turned down by your best friend...
when you think that you shouldn't be playing the violin in the first place...
when you suggested that you are not musically capable at all....
when you imagine your life without the special someone...
lots more...

you endured them...
you are a successor.

so why not take the challenge to face your new life?
you are here for a reason.

for everyone who made yourself present in any part of my past 18 years' life,
no matter how minor a role have you played,
you made who I am today.
Thanks.

and for sure, to my daddy n mummy n girl girl n boy boy....
both my ama(s)... all uncles n aunties...
all teachers n tutors... especially my violin mentor...
all of you friends... n enimies...
just wanna say that I appreciate what you all have given me....

the boy who was once so not grown up is here, now, ready for his brand-new life.
do drop him an email or sms him once a while ^-^

getting ready^^

hey guyz I'm setting off to Germany in some 14 hours time ^^
I hope it's gonna be a pleasurable trip^^
my luggage bag is so big~ the same height as my violin case...
half a month...bringing many things^^


and only yesterday did i realize that in Germany people use different kind of electricity plug... luckily...
so I managed to get a adapter...or else i will be bringing my chargers without being able to use them~


anyway i'm in Singapore now.
my uncle and aunt went to China for holidayz, so the house was left with me and two of my cousins.
Guess what? we were so lazy that plates n cups weren't washed for days n rubbish were just left like that around...


Father's day coming soon. Too bad I'll be in Germany.
anyway I've prepared the present d.
this reminds me of the mother's day in May.
just to show u guyz what I got for my mum^^
n papa, an early greetings, hapee father's day!

Do you still love?

Lady : Why do you like me.. Why do you love me?
Man : I can't tell the reason.. but I really love you..
Lady : You can't even tell me the reason... how can you say you love me? How can you say you like me?
Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
Lady : Proof No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man : Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you are thoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements. The lady felt very satisfied with the man's answer.

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and went in comma.

The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content:
Darling, Because of your sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you..Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile,because of your every movements that I love you.. Now can you smile. Now can you move. No, therefore I cannot love you...
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Does love need a reason?? NO!
Therefore, I still love you...

I saw this forward message on friendster.
so sweet isn't it?
or maybe it's just me being sentimental.

sentimental music.

Guyz, music actually makes me feel at home.
I just simply dunno how to describe the feelings musc brought me.
I've got a lot from music.
juz wanna share wth you all.
if you are as miserable as i was juz now, go listen to music.

what i'm listening now?
=> Barber - Violin Concerto
performed by Hilary Hahn.

bits of my life...

i think i'm born to be so moody.
trying my best not to cry.
saw mummy's sms just now.
she asked me if everything's ok here in singapore.
i didn't reply.
can i say everthing's not fine?
i hate life here.
how much i wish i could go back home, meet up with my friends.
i miss you all.
here i'm so lonely.
the only thing that actually make me feel the least of warmth is music.
but it's also music that in some ways makes me so miserable.
i miss secondary school dayz.
now if you ask me, i would rather go back n study n hav those exam i hated so much.
at least that's nice life.
in here, yes, i do get to go orchard n slack around.
but life's kinda empty, as if something's missing.
alice said that she think God sent her here for a reason.
i dunno if i would think that way. Buddha sent me here for a good reason?
maybe it's me not being able to get used to the life here.
this few dayz i'm so so so emo n moody.
how i wish someone's here to listen to me n to hug me like mummy used to do when i was young.
i miss my childhood too, even though i didn't like it then.
not for listening music i would have smashed something by now.
i miss my teacher too. she's in australia now having her holidays.
if she's here i would go to her place n have lessons every single day to solve all the problem in those germany tour repertoire.
i miss mpyo too. you guyz can play so well. who say that youth orchestras are not so pro?
listening to LSO's finlandia just now. i was almost in tears. it's so beautiful. especially when i'm so moody.
~~~
hope life to be beautiful.
it is already, in fact.
not to say Buddha or God, but there's certainly a reason for me to be here.
Daddy has said that to me before; i guess i'll believe it.
~~~
to meet the very right person in life.
i'm sure i can wait.